A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Miracles DO Happen

Still waiting til Fri for my next weigh-in...hoping to stay under 260.  But something happened this weekend that I just HAD to share.  For anyone who is a long-time follower of my blog, you'll truly understand the significance of this.  Dwayne...my boyfriend of nearly 7 years...asked me on Saturday, with NO prompting of my own...if I wanted to go down to the fitness center with him and exercise on the treadmill together.

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I just sat there and stared at him for a few seconds...blinked a couple of times, while my mind was screaming at me to say something!!  I finally, non-chalantly, agreed to go, telling him it sounded like a good idea.  And we went. 

Bless his heart.  I was walking at interval speeds between 3.4 and 3.8.  I haven't done any regular exercise in quite a while and that hurt.  He was walking at a speed of 3.0 and had to keep grabbing onto the bar in front of him and leaning on it for a few seconds at a time because he said his back hurt when he walked.  Poor thing isn't used to any exercise at all....ever.....but I was SOOOOOOOOOOO proud of him for suggesting it on his own and getting out there and doing it.

And guess what else??  He wanted to do it again on Sunday.  :)

So for all the blog posts I've written about him never wanting to exercise in his life and only sit on the couch and eat bacon double cheeseburgers while cursing vegetables of any kind.......this is proof that miracles DO happen.  :)  If you have a boyfriend/husband like mine.....there is always hope.  :) 

I'll be back on Friday with my weigh-in.  Have a fabulous Tuesday friends!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Cautiously Optimistic

Well....I made the decision to commit to walking a half marathon with my friends Kim and Tina this November in Savannah.  I pay my entry fee on June 1st when I get paid again.  I've got a lot of work to do.  The furthest I can walk right now w/o face-planting on the trail is 6 miles.  I've got a long ways to go to get to 13 miles.  I also made the decision to be one of those people that buys a treadmill for their home.  I've resisted this for a long time because I know me....and I didn't want to be one of those people that spends money on a treadmill and then uses it as a clothes rack a month after purchasing. 

But I've got a couple of reasons for deciding on this...my own personal reasons.  One is I just can't get over the guilt of working a 10, 12, 14 hour day away from Scarlette, only to come home and change clothes and walk right back out the door to the fitness center at my apt.  She's just too pitiful after missing me every day, so when I get home at night, I don't want to go anywhere else.  I just want to visit with my baby and Dwayne until bedtime.  At least with a treadmill in the basement, I won't have to be away from her.  She can watch her momma walk.  :) 

The other thing....I developed a heat rash when we went to Myrtle Beach....a MASSIVE one.  I haven't been able to get rid of it.  Walking outside in the heat, after we've moved to the new house, isn't going to be an option for me at all.  I'm already red and raw from such a low-hanging stomach and under my chest, and exercising out in the heat of summer will only exascerbate my problem.  So that's my 2nd reason for deciding on the treadmill for the house.   I'll be sweating for sure, but at least the room I'll be in will be air-conditioned, and I can get into a cold shower quickly after I'm done.  I'm planning to get one from Craig's List.

When I left for Myrtle Beach I was 260 lbs.  When I got back 5 days later I was 264.  I've been that weight for the last 3 weeks or so...ever since I've gotten back.  After I made the decision at the end of last week to commit to the half marathon I decided to turn my attention to the weight loss again.  This is a major thing, because after you've been "off plan" for as many months as I have (since December), it's tough to turn it all back around in one week.  I told myself to just start making small changes.  I had fallen into the habit of too much soda and too much restaurant food during the 5 weeks of storms and overtime we've had at work.  So I just started trying to cut back a little here and there and ease myself back into a more sane eating routine.

It's taken a lot of effort just to make the small changes, but so far it's been worth it.  I was 264 lbs. last Friday and this morning I was 259 lbs.  I've lost 5 lbs. in the last 6 days.  That's encouraging, but I don't want to hoop and holler too much.  I need to get to where I'm feeling solid again...not just get excited over one good week.  I had a catch in my throat this morning when I saw that I had dropped back into the 250's, even though it's ever so slightly.  I've been at 260 and above for so long that I was starting to think I'd never see a lower number again.  Today's eating has been all about concentrating on not going back up to that next decade again.  I've been thinking on it all day, and I'm hoping that by next week I can report that I'm firmly down into the mid 250's.

So I'm slowly pulling in the reigns again...not really trusting myself, but trying hard to.  I know I have it in me to lose this weight.  I know I have what it takes....I just need to concentrate on the positive things and leave the negative thoughts behind....the ones that say I'm destined to be fat forever because I just cant' seem to get a grip.  I can get a grip...I can...and I'm focusing on those positive thoughts today. 

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Good Friends

I'm finally catching a bit of a break at work.  I'm still getting some overtime but it's not near as crazy as it has been for the last 5 weeks or so. 

I had the chance to meet up with Tina from Fat Girl Dives In last night for dinner.  We went to Ted's Montana Grill.  It was fabulous.  I really enjoyed my visit with her...an hour of laughs, good stories and catching up....and a huckleberry margarita might have been involved. ;)

It was a really good time, and something we don't do near often enough.  I need to work on that.  Time with friends is important....and time with friends who are so motivated towards getting healthy is even MORE important. 

I'm supposed to get together with my good friend Kim this coming Sunday for lunch and I'm so looking forward to it.  Kim walked a HALF MARATHON a couple of weekends ago up in Nashville, TN....all by herself (a friend of hers backed out)...and I'm just so incredibly proud of her.  I can't wait to see her medal!

Also, Tina asked me last night if I still planned to walk the Half Marathon in Savannah this November.  She said she's definitely doing it.  I would certainly like to, but I know you can't play around with this stuff.  You have to actually train.  I was telling Tina how good she looked yesterday and that all that yoga and cardio she's doing must be paying off.  She said she works out 7 days a week and gets up at 5am to do so.  I was thinking that I already have to get up at 4:30am just to get to work by 6am...getting up at 3:30am to exercise first?  Hmmmm.   lol

We'll see what happens.  Hopefully I'll get my act together and find a way to MAKE time to get my buns in gear.  I would love to walk the Half in Savannah with 2 such good friends as Tina and Kim.  It would make for a fabulous girl's weekend, don't ya' think?  :)

Friday, May 6, 2011

Caught Up

We were actually caught up enough yesterday to leave at 5pm...only worked 11 hours!  I went home, fell in bed at 5:45p.  Scarlette curled up next to me and gave me sweet little kisses and we napped til 7:30p.  Got up and ate some dinner and visited with Dwayne.  Back in bed at 11pm.  Forgot to set my alarm and slept til 6:40am.  It was absolutely glorious, lol.  Feeling MUCH more energized today.  Have a fabulous weekend friends!  :)

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Shoot Me Please

I need someone to take mercy on me and put me out of my misery.  Worked til 11:15p last night..got a few hrs sleep and back up at 4:30.  At work now.  17 hour day yesterday...those are killers.  My eyes are burning and there's not enough make-up in the world to cover up the dark circles under my eyes.  I warned Billie as soon as I walked in the door to leave me alone today...that it's not gonna' be a good one.  Grrrr.  I miss sleep.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Is It Monday Again?

I'm losing track of my days after working 7 days this past week.  They're all starting to run together.  Somebody actually had to tell me it was payday last Friday because I was so unaware.  I got a bill from the cable company saying I owed $176 and I freaked.  Turns out I completely forgot to pay last month's bill so now I have a double bill.  When I tell you I've done nothing but work, I'm not exaggerating.  :)

I worked 10 hours on Sat and 11 hours yesterday to close out the week with 85.5 hours.  This week is shaping up to be more of the same.  We have a new temp coming in today that I have to train, and will be training a 2nd temp tomorrow.  That will make 4 temps altogether that we have helping us now so the work should get sent out sooner, which will ensure even more work for us in the future.  Billie said I may not even have time to do reports today w/ answering the phones, dealing with problem emails and training and managing the temp girls. 

I went home after work these last 2 nights and started packing up my apt to move in June.  Sleep is still very little....there's just too much to do between work and home.  I've pretty much slidden into permanent zombie mode now, lol.  Good news...my paychecks are looking pretty good.  Bad news...no time to spend it...not even on bills apparently (sorry cable company!). 

Time to sign off and get to it.  Looking forward to seeing Leslie from Something Brilliant Is Brewing.  She's supposed to be here soon.....I've already forgotten the days, but I've got them written down on my work calendar.  Now I just have to remove the piles of files sitting on top of it so I can actually read it.....ahhhhhh.....another day in paradise.  :)