A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Catching My Breath

It's been a crazy couple of weeks to say the least, but I think I can finally see daylight again.  I've been working overtime, trying to learn my new job position, and me and Billie are now doing the work of 3 people.  It's been exhausting, maddening, insane interesting.

The good news is my boss is happy.  And that's putting it mildly.  I think his exact words were "I feel like I can't live without you".  How's that for a compliment?  To my credit, I've been working DAMN HARD for that compliment.  At least I feel like I have a teensy tiny bit of job security right now...for the moment...and that's a big deal in this economy.

I ate a carrot today.  How pathetic is that, lol....it's been so long since I've eaten a raw vegetable that it's now a notable fact.  Ok, I'm exaggerating a little, but the point is that I consciously ate something healthy for me, and avoided the convenience foods/fast foods that I've been stuffing my face with for the last 2 weeks.  I can't even explain what I mean when I tell you I've been in a DEAD. RUN. for the last little while.  Everything has been grab and go.  Official grocery shopping has been sparse and meal planning has been non-existent.  But this past weekend, I actually bought a big bag of carrots.  And some navel oranges and bananas.  Hey, it's a start. 

I'm trying to corral my focus back to the weight loss thing again.  Yes.  Again.  Who knows?  Maybe one day I'll actually lose some weight and keep it off.  So what if it's the 1000th time I've started over.  I'm still here....the blog's still open...and that's got to count for something.

When I finally get a grip on my schedule/time, I'll get back around to more frequent posting, and leaving comments on YOUR blogs.  I apologize for being absent...I still care about all of you....just been so consumed.  I'm still reporting my weight each week though.  This week I reported on a Thursday...I was up 3 lbs, so 259 lbs.  I imagine it will be around the same this week, I'll see when Friday gets here.  But I'm hoping to get some momentum going here in the next week and should see a drop soon.  Until next time...take care friends.  Big hugs to all of you.  :) 


  1. That's a great compliment! Glad to see you're being appreciated :)

  2. great job on the carrot and making yourself indispensable. We'll be here when you have more time.

  3. I miss you too! Tell me when and I'm there. :)

    Let me know how I can support you in your effort to get back on track. Lord knows we can all use the encouragement! :-)

  4. Wow your are a living whirlwind my girl!!!
    I am in the doldrums at the moment but not too stressed about it. Take care sweetheart xxx

  5. take care of yourself..big hugs to you..

  6. Yes...awesome that your still here and your still trying. I have been eating crap for the past 7 days and in my lowest yesterday a friend said " you only fail when you stop trying" I loved it! It made me feel so much better

    Take it easy Tammy, glad to hear your boss appreciates you!! Thats so important!

  7. Don't worry about us...we will be here.
    Just take care of YOU. :0)

  8. Way to go, Girl! If your boss is happy--makes things a whole lot better at work. I knew that you would do a great job--Congrats!

    As for the rest of it--we will get there when we get there! One step at a time!!!

    Big hugs!!!!

  9. Great job on the job! Btw, not giving up is still winning in a weight loss battle so be proud of yourslef for sticking around! :)

  10. Hey! I didn't go to my blog till late morning and didn't even realize you'd posted til a few minutes ago. Job security indeed! If he can't live without you, I'd say you have some bargaining strength down the road for more $ and benefits!

    Good for you with the carrots, and fruit. I know what you mean - it is a big deal to begin to get back on track. I have no doubt you'll be dropping pounds before long. And one thing I know for myself is that when my eating is cleaner and saner, I'm calmer and more grounded. I bet you'll see that happen. Love you!

  11. even if its the 101st time you restart, it the starting again that counts!!