A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

So Over It

Ok.  I'm tired of being fat.  I'm ready to lose some weight again and maybe actually KEEP IT OFF this time.

I was watching a comedy show with one of Dwayne's favorite comedians, Daniel Tosh.  He has a show called Tosh.0 and also has a stand-up routine.  I pretty much hate him, although I'll admit to laughing at a couple of his jokes.  But for the most part....he's got the humor of a 12 year old boy.  Dwayne was watching his stand-up show Sunday night and if you weren't young, white, skinny and rich, he picked on you.  For us fat people he said, "Big can be beautiful....just not to me.  I think you're disgusting".

For once, I'd like for someone to pick on me for something other than my fat.  My religion, my political views, I'm too tall...whatever....but the fat jokes are really getting old.  I'm so over it. 

I'm planning on walking a Half Marathon with my friend Kim and whoever else wants to join this November.  It's only 8 months away, and at the speed that my days are flying by, it will be here before I know it.  I still haven't established an exercise routine, but I've thought about it!!  I've been training all week learning Billie's job because she will be on vacation next week and I'll be acting Ofc Mgr...doing her job, plus my job, plus Staci's job that I had to learn a month ago when she got fired.  3 jobs....all on ME.  I see a lot of overtime in my future.  I'm figuring on 12 hour days next week, and the chances of me coming home at 8:30p after a 12 hr day and exercising aren't real good.  But it is definitely in the near future.  Week after next?  That's the plan.  I weighed myself this morning.  258.0 lbs.  I've been this weight for several weeks now...just hanging out...losing nothing, but I finally stopped getting FATTER.  Now I'm finally ready, after a 3 month hiatus, to start losing weight again and get my head back in the game.  There's really only one reason for this.  I'm completely miserable physically.  That's it.  That's the reason.  I. Feel. Like. Shit....and I'm tired of it.  Til next time my friends.... :)

14 comments:

  1. Wow, lots of work for you next week...hope you get through it w/o too much stress...I don't like those comedians either...total ass holes, trying to make people laugh at others expense...the worst of it is that people Do find it funny...
    Good luck with the training...All I'm doing at the moment is thinking about it too...we're in the same boat...have a nice day=)

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  2. You can do it! It takes steady determination but I know that if you want it you will reach all of your goals. Never, never, never give up.

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  3. Wow! You will be working a lot. I know that means you will be very busy but how cool that you are the go-to person at your job. :)

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  4. Work makes it tough to have a regular exercise schedule. Don't you sometimes envy people who can devote so much time to exercise? It must be nice!

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  5. Bravo!
    You can do it ..............so can I........One Day At A Time ! (((hugs)))

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  6. You and I are always about the same on the scale. I've been teetering back and forth, too. I'm so ready to make this the last time I have to diet. Wish I lived near you, I'd walk the half with you.

    We can do this. I'll be doing two jobs after next week. Overtime for me, too. I just hope I can get some riding in sometime.

    Like Kelly said...never give up!!

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  7. Sometimes you have to feel like shit to get things moving in the right direction!

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  8. fat jokes are awful. and cheap shots.

    hope you feel better soon!!!

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  9. I had to turn off Ricky Gervais' stand up act because of his fat jokes. He a fat bastard himself (or at least used to be!) You can do this you just have to want it bad enough. I decided since I don't have kids, working a 16 hour day isn't an excuse not to move. It's so effing hard but it's THE ONLY way. I will be here to help!

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  10. I'll admit Daniel Tosh is occasionally funny but yeah, he does too many jokes about non-white races. If he picked on all races equally, it would be one thing (many comedians do that and it's acceptable) but my husband I noticed that he seems to pick on black people in a waaaay disproportionate amount to other races. It gets to the point that you wonder if he's still laughing 'with' them or 'at' them...and 'at' them is the wrong way to be. I don't mind the fat jokes so much, guess I have a thick skin about that, no pun intended ;) but the racial stuff, and also when he makes fun of the mentally/physically handicapped is when it gets to be too much for me...

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  11. I have found that exercise has really made a difference for me. I know you do not have time for exercise, but...maybe you do. Maybe you could squeeze even 5 minutes in at lunch of walking. Or walk up some stairs, or park far away when you do your errands. Taking even small steps will help.

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