Well....I made the decision to commit to walking a half marathon with my friends Kim and Tina this November in Savannah. I pay my entry fee on June 1st when I get paid again. I've got a lot of work to do. The furthest I can walk right now w/o face-planting on the trail is 6 miles. I've got a long ways to go to get to 13 miles. I also made the decision to be one of those people that buys a treadmill for their home. I've resisted this for a long time because I know me....and I didn't want to be one of those people that spends money on a treadmill and then uses it as a clothes rack a month after purchasing.
But I've got a couple of reasons for deciding on this...my own personal reasons. One is I just can't get over the guilt of working a 10, 12, 14 hour day away from Scarlette, only to come home and change clothes and walk right back out the door to the fitness center at my apt. She's just too pitiful after missing me every day, so when I get home at night, I don't want to go anywhere else. I just want to visit with my baby and Dwayne until bedtime. At least with a treadmill in the basement, I won't have to be away from her. She can watch her momma walk. :)
The other thing....I developed a heat rash when we went to Myrtle Beach....a MASSIVE one. I haven't been able to get rid of it. Walking outside in the heat, after we've moved to the new house, isn't going to be an option for me at all. I'm already red and raw from such a low-hanging stomach and under my chest, and exercising out in the heat of summer will only exascerbate my problem. So that's my 2nd reason for deciding on the treadmill for the house. I'll be sweating for sure, but at least the room I'll be in will be air-conditioned, and I can get into a cold shower quickly after I'm done. I'm planning to get one from Craig's List.
When I left for Myrtle Beach I was 260 lbs. When I got back 5 days later I was 264. I've been that weight for the last 3 weeks or so...ever since I've gotten back. After I made the decision at the end of last week to commit to the half marathon I decided to turn my attention to the weight loss again. This is a major thing, because after you've been "off plan" for as many months as I have (since December), it's tough to turn it all back around in one week. I told myself to just start making small changes. I had fallen into the habit of too much soda and too much restaurant food during the 5 weeks of storms and overtime we've had at work. So I just started trying to cut back a little here and there and ease myself back into a more sane eating routine.
It's taken a lot of effort just to make the small changes, but so far it's been worth it. I was 264 lbs. last Friday and this morning I was 259 lbs. I've lost 5 lbs. in the last 6 days. That's encouraging, but I don't want to hoop and holler too much. I need to get to where I'm feeling solid again...not just get excited over one good week. I had a catch in my throat this morning when I saw that I had dropped back into the 250's, even though it's ever so slightly. I've been at 260 and above for so long that I was starting to think I'd never see a lower number again. Today's eating has been all about concentrating on not going back up to that next decade again. I've been thinking on it all day, and I'm hoping that by next week I can report that I'm firmly down into the mid 250's.
So I'm slowly pulling in the reigns again...not really trusting myself, but trying hard to. I know I have it in me to lose this weight. I know I have what it takes....I just need to concentrate on the positive things and leave the negative thoughts behind....the ones that say I'm destined to be fat forever because I just cant' seem to get a grip. I can get a grip...I can...and I'm focusing on those positive thoughts today.
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