I'm on Day 5 of quitting smoking, and dare I say, it's getting a little easier? Dwayne and I used the gum for the first 3 days and it really didn't seem to be much help at all. I kept breaking down into crying fits every time I wanted to smoke and couldn't...and felt like I just wanted to crawl out of my skin. It was a seriously miserable feeling. Then Dwayne told me that quitting smoking is just as hard and just as addictive as heroine. That's NOT what I needed to hear. Obviously the withdrawals weren't as hideous as I would assume heroine withdrawals are....but they were bad enough that I knew I never wanted to do Day One over again...ever.
On the afternoon of Day 3, I went to Wal-mart on the advice of a friend and bought their brand of nicotine patches. My friend told me her husband quit smoking 3 years ago with the help of these specific patches...she said there was no need to buy the more expensive brand name patches. So I slapped one on yesterday morning...Day 4. Not to say that it wasn't still a difficult day...especially being surrounded by 3 other smokers here at work....but I can DEFINITELY say that it was worlds easier than with the gum. It was an amazing difference, for sure. I was much calmer yesterday than when chewing the gum.
Things are still difficult today...if I let my mind wander to a cigarette for more than a few seconds my chest starts to tighten and the anxiety comes on pretty fast, so I try to busy myself with something else and stay pre-occupied for other things. Of course, it's not helping that I've already been at work for an hour and a half and haven't had a single insurance claim come through my email yet this morning!! I need some work!!
I have also noticed that I'm eating more....I was afraid that whole hand-to-mouth habit was going to get me, and it has. I bought scale batteries and got on yesterday morning. Things are worse than I thought. So bad, that I can't bring myself to report my weight today. Give me a couple of weeks to get past the difficulty of the quitting smoking, and then I'll get back to reporting my weight. "First things first"...one of Leslie's AAisms. Thanks Leslie. :)
A co-worker, William, came in this morning and stopped at my desk to ask how I'm doing. I smiled a big smile and said, "I'm on Day 5.....I really think I'm going to make it this time...I'm going to be a non-smoker!" He smiled back, raised a triumphant fist in the air, and said, "I love your confidence! Oh, and, you ARE a non-smoker." Hmmm....yeah....I guess I am. Have a great day friends. :)
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