So I posted on Wednesday, after 4 days of healthy eating, that the scale STILL said 247....not even 1/2 a lb. gone. I got up yesterday morning and weighed and I was 245.4...awesome! Down 1.6 lbs. I was totally prepared to be very happy with that # if it was still there this morning on weigh-in. Well.....after I weighed yesterday morning and was feeling pretty good....I find out that we met our goal for revenue this month, and the boss is ordering pizza for everyone for lunch yesterday.
Now I know that I could have turned it down....and that was my first instinct. I think my actual thought was, "Oh HELL no!" However, since I've only been here a couple of weeks and I'm still very much "the new girl", I let that win over. I didn't want to be the one who stood out and turned down his kindness...not just yet. Maybe in another month, I'll feel comfortable enough to turn down free lunch from the boss...but not just yet.
So I had 2 pieces, knowing knowing knowing what the sodium was going to do to me. I started drinking water like a mad woman....flushing as much as I possibly could. I just knew if I saw some hideous # on the scale like 250 or worse that it was going to ruin my whole weekend. I weighed this morning at 247.2. Only up 1.8 lbs. from yesterday's weigh-in after PIZZA?? I'll take it!! I mean yeah....I'm completely sick of seeing that # "247"....more than I can express....but oh my it could have been so much worse. Instead of going off the deep end and eating whatever because I just don't give a flip and I'm sick of trying and taking a sledgehammer to my scale....I'm actually ok with that #... for now...for today....and I came into work and had a boiled egg and an apple for breakfast here at my desk. I brought a can of low sodium soup for lunch....and I have a Chobani yogurt and a bag of carrot sticks in the frig for snacks.
I'm going to put some real effort into navigating through the weekend and the holiday eating with some sense of sanity. I'm pretty much out of groceries again, so it's going to be hit and miss. If I make some money at my garage sale, I'll get to go grocery shopping this weekend...hooray for that! I've got a cookout at Dwayne's mom's house on Sunday afternoon for the holiday. So far, I don't have any concrete plans for Monday...but I'm sure that will change. So the plan is to just take it one meal at a time and do as best I can. I hope all of you have a happy, fun and safe Independence Day...and when you're saying your prayers, remember to throw in one as a thank you for the freedom that you enjoy each and every day. :)
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