A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Stupid Pizza

So I posted on Wednesday, after 4 days of healthy eating, that the scale STILL said 247....not even 1/2 a lb. gone.  I got up yesterday morning and weighed and I was 245.4...awesome!  Down 1.6 lbs.  I was totally prepared to be very happy with that # if it was still there this morning on weigh-in.  Well.....after I weighed yesterday morning and was feeling pretty good....I find out that we met our goal for revenue this month, and the boss is ordering pizza for everyone for lunch yesterday. 

Now I know that I could have turned it down....and that was my first instinct.  I think my actual thought was, "Oh HELL no!"  However, since I've only been here a couple of weeks and I'm still very much "the new girl", I let that win over.  I didn't want to be the one who stood out and turned down his kindness...not just yet.  Maybe in another month, I'll feel comfortable enough to turn down free lunch from the boss...but not just yet.

So I had 2 pieces, knowing knowing knowing what the sodium was going to do to me.  I started drinking water like a mad woman....flushing as much as I possibly could.  I just knew if I saw some hideous # on the scale like 250 or worse that it was going to ruin my whole weekend.  I weighed this morning at 247.2.  Only up 1.8 lbs. from yesterday's weigh-in after PIZZA??  I'll take it!!  I mean yeah....I'm completely sick of seeing that # "247"....more than I can express....but oh my it could have been so much worse.  Instead of going off the deep end and eating whatever because I just don't give a flip and I'm sick of trying and taking a sledgehammer to my scale....I'm actually ok with that #... for now...for today....and I came into work and had a boiled egg and an apple for breakfast here at my desk.  I brought a can of low sodium soup for lunch....and I have a Chobani yogurt and a bag of carrot sticks in the frig for snacks.

I'm going to put some real effort into navigating through the weekend and the holiday eating with some sense of sanity.  I'm pretty much out of groceries again, so it's going to be hit and miss.  If I make some money at my garage sale, I'll get to go grocery shopping this weekend...hooray for that!  I've got a cookout at Dwayne's mom's house on Sunday afternoon for the holiday.  So far, I don't have any concrete plans for Monday...but I'm sure that will change.  So the plan is to just take it one meal at a time and do as best I can.  I hope all of you have a happy, fun and safe Independence Day...and when you're saying your prayers, remember to throw in one as a thank you for the freedom that you enjoy each and every day.  :) 

11 comments:

  1. I hope the pizza was good. It sounds like you're prepared with healthy foods to get you through the day. It's hard to stay away from all the office temptations but once in a while isn't going to do much damage.

    Good luck at the yard sale. I really need to have one too but they are SO much work to prepare for. I hope you make lots of money and have a great holiday weekend. Be safe and enjoy!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Eh...pizza will happen. Its part of life and will be a memory shortly. Just enjoy yourself and know that in the long run, it won't mean a thing. ; )

    ReplyDelete
  3. Good luck with the yard sale this time! Have a wonderful holiday.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Glad you enjoyed your pizza. Remember, Tammy, you need to live life. I know exactly about the sodium. What a pain that can be. I hope you have a happy 4th of July. Enjoy your weekend.

    From your Canadian friend!

    ReplyDelete
  5. Enjoy your holiday. Have fun doing the garage sale.

    ReplyDelete
  6. That is exactly what pizza does for me. I can count on gaining 2 lbs. But I weigh every day (unofficially) just to learn what my body is doing, so it doesn't upset me any more if there is a 1 or 2 lb swing one way or the other. Like you, if I eat it, or know I am going to eat it, I go ahead and start with the water earlier in the day.

    Good luck with the garage sale. The holiday traffic may bring in more buyers - I hope!

    ReplyDelete
  7. Don't beat yourself up over it.
    Hubby can't eat cheese or milk products so when the grandson & greats came the other day, I grabbed my chance to eat pizza.
    Made that delivery call & though I knew what that stuff does to me... I too ate 2 pieces. sigh!
    That's why it's called The Battle of the Buldge. Uphill fight all the way my friend.
    Happy days ahead for you. ;0)

    ReplyDelete
  8. Whenever you're in this situation again, remember that you can say anything at all. You can simply say that you have an allergy to a certain ingredient, or that it gives you indigestion, or is too rich. There's nothing to say that you *have* to eat it, even though you want to. Next time, maybe you could have half a slice, so that you don't feel guilty or as if you have done something you have to regret.

    It's all up to you. Your choice what you decide to put into your body. Don't be afraid to respect that even if you do feel you'll stick out. What if someone else there had refused, would you have judged them? No. Because maybe they didn't feel like pizza, maybe they had already eaten, maybe they were allergic to dairy products etc.

    I hope you feel better soon

    x

    ReplyDelete
  9. Verity V. had some awesome advice...that I am going to remember! So with that said, I have nothing to add, lol. Stay encouraged girl!

    ReplyDelete
  10. Pizza is part of life sometimes. I think you handled the situation beautifully!! Have a great weekend.

    ReplyDelete
  11. I agree with those who said that pizza is just part of life sometimes. Water retention is not a sign of true weight gain. It's temporary even though it can be frustrating for a moment.

    Congrats on getting the job and the opportunity to be 'the new girl' for a while. That's fantastic..

    ReplyDelete