A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I Lost My Job Today

Billie called me in her ofc around noon today when I was supposed to be going to the temp agency to sign up.  She told me that Scott, the president of our ofc, had a budget meeting with his business partners in Florida last night.  His partners told him there is absolutely no money in the budget for him to hire a receptionist right now and he's just going to have to let me go.  Billie said he didn't want to lose me, that none of them did.....they all think I'm doing a great job and she told me a lot of nice things they said.  Scott felt like an ass, saying they all jumped the gun by hiring me before the budget meeting. 

She offered to let me work through the end of the day but I told her that was an impossibility.....I held it together as long as I could while she explained the situation to me....told her I completely understood...and then the tears started falling and there was no stopping them.  I told her I wouldn't be able to finish out the day because everyone knew I was leaving, and I was just feeling too awkward, and stressed, and sad, etc and I didn't want to be crying all afternoon in front of everyone.  So after about 45 mins, when I got the tears dried up and my face clear,  I shook the hands of the 3 higher-ups in the office, thanked them for the opportunity, and said maybe they could consider me if the budget opens up in the future. 

Billie felt horrible....said she hated her job for reasons like this....said she was sorry over and over and told me she loved me.  She said they won't know what the budget looks like til the next quarter, so 3 more months.  Meanwhile....I cried all the way home as I was driving and trying to figure out what God's reason is for this.  I don't know what it is....maybe it will come to me later.  All I know is my emotions went from flying high to the bottom of the barrel in the last 2 1/2 days.  I'm very sad....very, very sad.  I'm going to lay down on my bed now and sleep as long as I want.  Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully with it will come a better attitude.  'Nite friends.

42 comments:

  1. Oh, that's messed up. I'm so sorry, Tammy.

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  2. What a blow that must have been Tammy! That just plain stinks. Take good care of yourself today.

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  3. Holy crap, Tammy. That's terrible. I'm very sorry.

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  4. Oh Tammy I am so sorry. I am glad its not going to screw you out of your unemployment though...at least that is one blessing in the midst of this, and there always is one if you look for it.

    I know how badly emotional roller coasters suck lately and I am looking forward to both of us losing our tickets for them.

    Love you.

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  5. Aw Tammy! Hang in there! It'll all make sense in the long haul! We're here for you!

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  6. Well, that's a kick in the nutz...

    Hang in there, Tammy.

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  7. Oh Tammy ... that just sucks. I can't believe they did that to you. I know how excited you were to be working after being unemployed for so long. I'm not sure what the master plan is but I'm praying that you will soon find out what it is and end up exactly where you're supposed to be. Hang in there.

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  8. I'm so sorry Tammy. I hope you feel better tomorrow. Look after yourself! I'll be praying for you to find another, better job.
    x

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  9. Oh Tammy that is bad sweetheart.
    Sending big hugs darling girl just don;t know what to say,,,,

    love

    Sheilagh
    xx

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  10. I am so sorry. I hope that you can find something new. Big hugs to you.

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  11. So sorry this happened Tammy. I'm sure there is a plan in there somewhere. *hugs*

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  12. I'm so, so sorry Tammy! I'll keep you in my prayers!

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  13. So sorry.... at least you know it was $$$$ and not YOU! I know how excited you were.

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  14. You have got to be kidding me?! I am so sorry to hear this. I know how happy you were to get back to work. I am hoping that there is a better job for you out there. Don't get to down on yourself, when a door closes a window of opportunity opens!!!!

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  15. Oh Tammy!! My heart is breaking for you. What a devastating day. :( Keep your head up. It may not seem like it today but for everything there is a reason. Something will turn around for you!! Keep having faith!

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  16. Oh Tammy, I am so sorry. *hug*

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  17. Oh, Tammy. That really sucks. I just hope God has something better in the works for you. Try not to let it get you down too bad.

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  18. I'm so terribly sorry, Tammy. What an emotional roller coaster you've been on. I pray that sleep brings you peaceful respite. Hugs and love to you.

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  19. I'm so sorry to hear this Tammy. How disapointing! Something is out there for you, just haven't found it yet.

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  20. I'm so sorry this has happened to you, Tammy. Much love and hugs, girlie.

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  21. What a shame, I am so sorry. Things always look better in the morning.

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  22. argh!!! WTF! I'M SO SORRY. Right now you have every right to feel ticked off, disappointed, depressed, you name it.....We're rooting for you though. Just hang in there. There must be something better coming. It is always the case.Hard to believe now, but I have always found it so.

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  23. This absolutely breaks my tammy-loving-heart...I'm so sorry.

    This also pisses me the !@#!@# off that your employer didn't know enough about their budget in the first place...that was cruel.

    Wow...what else can I say?

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  24. Tammy, this seems so wrong on so many levels. I have to believe there is something better for you coming along and hopefully very soon. I'm praying for you.

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  25. Me, too. Feeling very sad for you right now. But you handled the sudden departure so well. I think you're great. Hang in there friend.

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  26. That was pretty unprofessional on their part to have hired someone without knowing their payroll limits. I am so, so sorry. There is something out there for you.

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  27. Dear Tammy, I'm so so sorry to hear about this.

    I really hope another opportunity comes along for you very soon.

    (((HUGS))) and Love,
    Bearfriend xx

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  28. So, so sorry. I'm with Jack: hang in there!

    P.S. Is there any possibility of going back to school/retraining/...?

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  29. Seriously? I don't know if I'd want to work for a company that does that. Hire before checking budget? good grief. Wow, I wonder what you're supposed to learn from this. Something better is going to come up...

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  30. Crap. That stinks.

    Best of luck Tammy. I am praying for you.

    MM

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  31. I am so sorry! I don't know what to say... All I know is that God has something better out there for you. I know that doesn't help right now but He does...

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  32. Aww, Tammy that sucks. I guess that means there's a better job out there waiting for you.

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  33. That just bites, no other pollyanna talk here. I'm so sorry, but it really is about them, not you. Their loss, I say! Hugs to you!

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  34. Tammy that is so aweful, you will be in my thoughts and prayer

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  35. I'm so sorry. This has to be beyond stressful. I hope God opens a wonderful door to a great job for you. Keep your chin up and believe something good will happen, k?

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  36. I'm thinking of you my friend. I'm so sorry Tammy. You will make it through this---Look at all you've beat already. This is devastating news, but it isn't going to beat you. You're strong, you have faith, you're not the same person you were 100 pounds ago.
    You're in my prayers Tammy---I'm seriously hoping and praying that everything will come together and show you the answers to why, real soon.

    My best always
    Sean

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  37. My Mom always used to say, "Everything happens for a reason". I came to believe it. You will too

    hugs, Kathleen

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  38. im sure sorry tammy..i know how excited you was with the job...but you are doing so well..i know i would have been overeating..your doing great..you will find a new job..iam sorry..kelli

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  39. Wow that so sucks. I'm thinking about you.

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