Billie called me in her ofc around noon today when I was supposed to be going to the temp agency to sign up. She told me that Scott, the president of our ofc, had a budget meeting with his business partners in Florida last night. His partners told him there is absolutely no money in the budget for him to hire a receptionist right now and he's just going to have to let me go. Billie said he didn't want to lose me, that none of them did.....they all think I'm doing a great job and she told me a lot of nice things they said. Scott felt like an ass, saying they all jumped the gun by hiring me before the budget meeting.
She offered to let me work through the end of the day but I told her that was an impossibility.....I held it together as long as I could while she explained the situation to me....told her I completely understood...and then the tears started falling and there was no stopping them. I told her I wouldn't be able to finish out the day because everyone knew I was leaving, and I was just feeling too awkward, and stressed, and sad, etc and I didn't want to be crying all afternoon in front of everyone. So after about 45 mins, when I got the tears dried up and my face clear, I shook the hands of the 3 higher-ups in the office, thanked them for the opportunity, and said maybe they could consider me if the budget opens up in the future.
Billie felt horrible....said she hated her job for reasons like this....said she was sorry over and over and told me she loved me. She said they won't know what the budget looks like til the next quarter, so 3 more months. Meanwhile....I cried all the way home as I was driving and trying to figure out what God's reason is for this. I don't know what it is....maybe it will come to me later. All I know is my emotions went from flying high to the bottom of the barrel in the last 2 1/2 days. I'm very sad....very, very sad. I'm going to lay down on my bed now and sleep as long as I want. Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully with it will come a better attitude. 'Nite friends.
3 months ago