A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Miss Grumpy Pants

I am so over the picture-taking, lol.

Here's the deal...I haven't mentioned this yet this week but I'm on my cycle and feeling pretty miserable.  True to form...my moods are crazy (Jekyll & Hyde kinda' stuff), my clothes don't fit right, my cramps are over the top, and I generally just don't give a crap.....about anything or anyone.  Blah!

I don't know why I picked THIS particular week to "get back on track", but it was a dumb move.  I guess there's always the rationale that I need to do whatever I can to keep from getting any FATTER...that point would be hard to argue....but man, I'm just not feeling it.  I expected the first couple of days to be a struggle (as in last Fri & Sat), but every friggin' day has been a struggle...and I feel like I'm going downhill as each day passes.  I have to keep reminding myself that it's like this EVERY month....not just this one.  I'm in the middle of the first week of a very bad two week timeframe.  Have I ever mentioned how much I hate my body? 

I don't know if I've ever told this story on here before but I'm now reminded of it every month...it haunts me, lol....so I'll share it with you.

When I was younger I didn't have a cycle....it was like once a YEAR...which means life was pretty much perfect.  I had heard about PMS...the mood swings, the fluctuating hormones, breaking down in tears for no good reason, etc.....but I never really believed it or thought it was real.  In fact, I was standing in a store one day reading a greeting card....and this is what now haunts me.  There was a woman on the front talking to her doctor and the doctor was doubled over in laughter.  The bubble over the woman's head with the writing in it said, "My doctor told me my PMS was all in my head...   (open the card).....so I shot him."  And she's sitting there on the table thingie with a smoking gun in her hand.  I remember laughing a little, but my eyes flew open wide and I thought to myself, good LORD, it can't be THAT bad!!

Oh I was so wrong.  So very, very wrong.  lol

Several years later I started on birth control to regulate my cycles because apparently it's not healthy to never have one.  Enter PMS.  It was like I all of a sudden turned into a raving lunatic and had no explanation as to why....until I finally realized what comes along with having a NORMAL cycle.  I know not everyone has it....and some don't have it to the degree of others....but I've been cursed.  And I am now a believer.  lol

So anyhoo....about this picture-taking stuff.  I really don't give a rat's glutes right now.  It probably has a LOT to do with my mood swings at the moment....I might change my mind later and post every calorie again...but for right now, I'm just not...and I really don't give a flip. 

I do have some pics for today...I tried another new recipe out of the same cookbook as last night.  But I haven't even eaten dinner yet so I don't have any pics for that.  I'm waiting on Shane to get home to see what he wants to do.  I have some leftovers from lunch....the Spicy Shrimp Creole I made...but he can't handle spicy stuff, and I was ill-prepared in having a plan for dinner....so who knows what we'll eat.

I ran a TON of errands today....I was out of the house by 9am and didn't get back home til 3pm.  My sister Amy was with me.  I had breakfast out at Chic-fil-A because I overslept and couldn't get breakfast cooked in time.  However, we came home for lunch. I actually made the Creole last night in preparation for a busy day ahead, and all I had to do was peel the shrimp and add that to the pot today.  It's ironic that I actually had the forethought to cook last night so we wouldn't eat OUT for lunch today knowing we were going to be gone for so many hours....but then woke up late and ended up eating breakfast out instead.  That's the way my whole week has been....stupid.

                                                 Chicken Breakfast Burrito from Chick-fil-A.

                                                                         Calories:  450

Sauteed 2 c. onions and 1/2 c. celery in 1 1/2 tbsp of EVOO.  (The recipe called for 2 c. of celery but I didn't have that much left in the frig...it also called for 3 Tbsp of oil, but I couldn't spend that many calories on just oil, so I only used half, which worked just fine.)

2 Tbsp of all purp flour, 1 tsp sugar, 1 tsp. ea. of s&p...was supposed to be 1 tsp of cayenne pepper, but I didn't have any, so I threw in a few shakes of Creole seasoning.

Simmer all the stuff together (you saw the small can of tomato sauce and large can of crushed tomatoes in the photo above) for about 30-45 mins.  Today I re-heated it, then added the 2 lbs. of shrimp the recipe called for....oh!  It also called for 1 bay leaf and 1 Tbsp hot pepper sauce (I used Tabasco).  Anyhoo, add shrimp and cook on medium heat for another 15-20 mins.  I served it over 1 c. of Steamfresh brown rice.

My sister ABSOLUTELY loved this dish and I thought it was pretty darn tasty, too!  It says it's 8 servings, but I doubled the servings and made it 4....1 for each of us and I have 2 svgs left in the frig.

It's 242 cals/svg...so my plate was 484 cals.  The 1 c. of brown rice was 150 cals, so the whole plate was 634 cals.

I had a Kashi bar this afternoon for a snack.

Calories:  110

My calories for the day so far are 1194....still trying to figure out dinner. 
Talk to you tomorrow! 


  1. That Creole seasoning is wonderful on mac & cheese if you find a low fat version you like. Yum!!

  2. I have to say that I don't miss the menstrual merry-g-round at all! Just remember that by next week you'll feel like dear Tammy again!

    That creole looks awesome! Maybe you should come up here and cook for us for awhile, and bring that cookbook!

  3. WOW!!!! that little bitty burrito thing had that many calories...kinda glad I do eggs and steel cut oats. I need more food than that :)

  4. There is life after PMS...hang in there!

  5. So I was reading your stats on your sidebar... have you almost lost 100 pounds??!! I don't know how that one slipped over my head!! That is so awesome, and inspiring!

  6. Lol! To me, you've lost 100 pounds! ;D

  7. Hi Tammy. Sorry about your PMS. Many women take the pill back to back (on docs advice) to avoid having periods at all. So I'd be taking tabs to avoid them if I were you! Seriously, it may be worth looking into this. You don't have to put up with it.

    Your shrimp creole looks amazing!

    Bearfriend xx

  8. I do the seasonalle...which means you only have a period once every 3 months...4 a year. I love it...though I do pay for it sometimes when I do have it...a little more crampy..but it is so worth it only dealing with it once every 3 months! :)

  9. I use an IUD called Mirena and I have not had a cycle all year! I L-O-V-E it and no side effects. You only have to replace it every 5 years!

  10. Mother Nature is a B*tch. Hang in there!

  11. Ugh. I'm right there with you. I can ruin years of "self" work in one episode of PMS...
    I've been lurking without commenting here lately! Just letting you know I'm still cheering for you!

  12. Hello! I just came across your blog and I am absolutely loving it! You are doing fab with your loss! You have a new follower!

    xo enjoy the weekend!