This is my youngin' in her prom picture this year.
I talked to her on Facebook for a few minutes this morning. She's terrified of telling her mother that she's ready to meet me. She said she is ready to meet me and "this side of her family", as she put it, but she said her mom is very fragile and emotional, especially since Brittany's dad passed away last November. Brittany said this is a huge, important thing and is just trying to spend a little time thinking of how to mention it to her mom w/o her mom taking it the wrong way and thinking Brittany is trying to replace her with someone else or any other such nonsense.
If you've never been part of an adoption process let me tell you....it's emotional, highly stressful and downright messy. It's nerve-racking, consuming, and full of fear. There was a highlight to today's conversation though.
Brittany said she wanted to specifically tell me that she doesn't hate me, never has, and actually wanted to say a huge thank you for giving her to her parents instead of snuffing out her life like I could have with an abortion. She said the last 19 years have been fantastic for her...being raised by the best parents in the world, and she wouldn't change a single thing....
I can't tell you what that did for my heart.....I really needed to hear that. It starts the healing on some wounds that have laid bare within me for many, many years.
No matter how long it takes for us to meet....if we ever meet, due to her mom's reaction...doesn't really matter.
Either way....Brittany is a blessing.