A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

This Too Shall Pass

I see a LOT of people are battling depression right now.  I'm no different.  As I said before, I absolutely refuse to write another depressing post, so that's why I haven't been posting regularly yet.

A great friend and fellow blogger emailed me to check on me and I'm so glad she did.  She reminded me that "this too shall pass" and I've always believed in that saying whole-heartedly.  Still do.  Just waiting on "this" to pass. 

I'm just trying to maintain my weight from last Friday this week.  I hope I have.  Wanting my heart's desires to win out over the bad emtions.  Praying every day that it happens soon so I can sail down the scale and get this weight off.  I know that losing the weight won't "fix" all of life's problems.  But it affects so many things for me, that I have to believe that it will make a huge difference....a positive one.  And who can't use a little more positivity??

My gym was packed to the rafters tonight, so instead of waiting on an elliptical, Billie and I spent 45 mins manuvering through the sea of newcomers to do the weight machines, and then we spent an hour trying out a new class called Zumba.  It's a Latin dance class.  Wow.  I didn't know my hips could move like that.  It was interesting to say the least, but I think I'll drop some more weight before I do that again.  I want to feel more comfortable before I'm in there shaking and shimmying with the skinny minnies.  It's tough being the fattest one in the class. 

Good luck to everyone getting started again.  I know it's tough, but I believe in all of us.  We're here for a reason, we know what needs to be done.  And for those of you suffering through the depression, whether it's seasonal or a lifelong battle, I'm praying for each and everyone one of you.  I know just how paralyzing it can be and I pray that all of us can break free very soon and enjoy the lives we dream of. :)


  1. Tammy, I love you and am praying for you. Things will be better.

    Love, Mom O.

  2. Ooh, I've always wanted to try Zumba, but there are no classes here. I'm praying for you that happy times will come for you soon.

  3. Hi Tammy. I know what you mean about not wanting to write a depressing post! I was surprisingly OK over Christmas but have slumped at the New Year. Looking back over the previous year never does me any favours lol. Esp not this last year. But I'm through looking back now.

    I think you should carry on dancing right away and not wait to lose more weight. Enjoy it now. I know it's difficult being the fattest person in the room - you are much braver than me. But having done it once, I say get there again. Do it for all of us who are on the cuddly side (being nice!) but don't have your guts and strength. You are my hero as ever!

    Bearfriend xx

  4. I"m praying for you girlfriend. Zumba......my sister loves it. I have never tried it. I want to, but I feel I need to lose more weight before I try it. I worry I will not be able to keep up. I give you lots of credit for trying it out. I only lost a half a pound this week. OH, this is so hard at times. But like you, I refuse to give up. Hugs, Kathleen

  5. I'm so sorry you're dealing with such heavy feelings right now. Try to get some Vitamin D - it helps!
    Zumba is a great class - maybe you can get a DVD and do it at home a bit to make you more comfortable? When I took classes at my gym I was always the biggest girl in there. But you know what - after a couple of weeks, I could do everything the rest of the class was doing, AND I was bigger than them! A great accomplishment, I think.

  6. I really want to try Zumba. My friend and I were talking about trying to find a place to do it! Thanks for the report :-)

  7. Depression is a horrible monster. I know you'll make it! You're right, this too shall pass---and you'll remember how bad it was---as you enjoy how good it has become.
    It'll make for a nice contrast.

    You're awesome Tammy---don't forget that!

    My best always

  8. Hi Tammy - Thanks for your wonderful kind comment on my blog yesterday - it was great to hear from you again. I think I'm struggling with some low level depression myself, as well as a total case of the "poor me's". Really sucks. So far I'm hanging in with food and moving as best I can since Sunday, and like you hope for a decent weight this week after some pretty scary ones last week!

    I love "this too shall pass". It's used a lot in AA, and it does help when one gets in a funk or all the shit is hitting the fan at once. You are in my thoughts and prayers a lot, and I'm so glad you're posting more often again. I told you before, I was really missing you when you were taking a bit of a break. Hang in there, friend. We will get through this - all of it - together, and a day at a time.

  9. Sending big hugs and tons of love my darling Tammy, so wish we were closer, geographically, a good natter with good friends works wonders.

    love and hugs


  10. Depression sucks Tammy. I suffer from it as does my whole family. It will pass. It always does. Doesn't help having a packed gym either! You and I need to meet up one of these days. I'm a great listener :)

  11. Don't worry about the packed gym. It will thin out as people decide they don't want to make the same commitment you do.

    I want to try Zumba too!

  12. Zumba is suppossed to be so good! They just started a class at the University here and I'm tempted to try it. But in true university way, it doesn't start until 9:00 p.m.!

    Take care of yourself,

  13. Tammy,

    Focus on all the good things in your life and plan for the future. Don't let the depression hug you like a blanket.

    Please go back to Zumba because it is a great class. When you go don't focus so much on yourself or others around you. When I go to class I like to say to myself "this is my space and I deserve to be here". You deserve it Tammy so go back.

    Take care lady!

  14. Just wanted to say I read your blog. Thanks for sharing. I too am battling the weigh war. Good luck to you.

  15. Hey girl!!

    I am right there with you- doesn't it feel like once you just get to your goal weight, everything will be better?? I feel like "once im skinny, I'll have it all" and it is just so upsetting and frustrating that the process is so slow! Don't get down on yourself though..like you said many people are battling depression and I have been there as well, but you need to remember that you are loved and the person you are is amazing. Just let that person shine and you will gain confidence like no other and you watch those pounds just run off you =)

    good luck=)

  16. I know I shake all over the place when I do Zumba but it is soooo fun that I get over it and just have a good time. Do what is best for you but I say DON'T wait until you lose more... just my two cents...

  17. enjoy reading about your success. love your posts. just started a 212 lbs journey myself and have a blog you might want to check out..

    The more people who are watching me the better chance of me staying on track :)