I really want to know. I want you to tell me. What's your best advice on overcoming a craving? Do you cave in and just eat it? Do you hold strong and wait until the craving passes? What if that craving last up to 2 weeks? What if you're tired of resisting, finally break down, and instead of eating the one thing you're craving, you go on an all-out binge from the ridiculous stress that comes with avoiding that one item you're craving? What if you eat everything BUT the one thing you're craving, trying to avoid eating the said craving, and then end up eating it anyway...plus all the extra calories from eating the food you were eating to avoid the craving in the first place?
I know this probably sounds insane to a lot of people reading....especially those that don't have an eating problem. And YES, there are people out there that read weight loss blogs that don't have an eating/weight problem. Weird...I know...but it happens. :)
I'm a food addict. Addict is such a nasty little word. I cringe every time I say it, type it or even think it. Who wants to be known as a junkie? But I am one. It's a hard thing to face, and an even harder thing to recover from. From Day One of starting this blog, I chose the motto at the top of the page: A food addict's travels on the road to recovery. That was my attempt at finally facing my addiction to food, and finding a way to turn it around. Those first days/weeks of this blog were hard. Hard to write...hard things to admit. Depressing crap that I was SURE nobody would want to read. Now I look over at my sidebar and I see 280 followers. How did THAT happen???? I guess you people are sicker than I thought...LMAO. Totally kidding. What I REALLY see when I look over at that sidebar is people that are perhaps just like me. People that have the same struggles, fears, problems, issues, flaws....but also the same hope...the same dreams...the same courage, strength, determination, tenacity, desire to get better. To be better. To learn how to recover. Because you know....once we get to "goal"...whatever that # is for each of us....we're not finished. We're not done by a long shot.
I know a couple of people who have gotten to goal since I started blogging last June and I'm just going to be honest with you. They're having one hell of a time keeping it between the lines. They're struggling to maintain...and it's even moreso than they struggled to lose the weight. Isn't that a kicker? This is hard stuff. Because it's not just about dropping some pounds. It's about changing your lifestyle...how you eat, yes...but more importantly, how you think...how you react to food....how you deal with it. How you handle it. Learning how to treat it as fuel and how NOT to fantasize over it. Not yearn for it, like I do. This is what I did last night. I was laying in bed fantasizing about food like a junkie wanting their next fix. I hit the sack at 11:30p last night and I laid awake thinking about different things, but mostly food...until 1am this morning. Sick? Yes. Insane? Yes. Shameful? You bet. But it's honest. It's real. This is me...my life...my addiction.
Did I want to talk about this to you this morning? Nope. Did I NEED to talk to you about this? Yep. Why? Because as embarassing as it is to reveal these things about me....I also know that I can't be the only person in the world with these issues. Someone else has to understand the struggle...the addiciton...themselves, and thus, maybe they've discovered or stumbled upon some epiphanies, some solutions, or just some helpful tips along this road to recovery. And God knows I need all the help I can get.
It doesn't really matter what I was craving this one particular time, but I'll tell you anyway. Crab Alfredo. lol
Red Lobster has been running these effing CrabFest commercials for 2 weeks now, and I see them every evening on TV...on the weekends...the damn things are everywhere. Number one issue....seafood is my all-time favorite type of food. Number two issue....I pass a Red Lobster every day going to and from work...it's about 1 mile from where I work. Number three issue....the craving hit 2 weeks ago, and it seems the longer I try to avoid it, the stronger the craving gets. I keep thinking I'll just ride it out until CrabFest is over and they stop advertising it....I don't know. But seriously....laying in bed at night and can't sleep because you're thinking about food????? How sick is that??? I'm such an addict. I think, well maybe I should just eat it and move on. Then I think, isn't there like 3000 calories in fettucine alfredo???? It's one of those things that are just off the charts, kinda' like pecan pie. :) Maybe I should get it and only eat half. Can I be trusted to stop at half? I'm not so sure.
So I want some ideas. Whether it be this one dish...or something different I'm craving a month from now. How do you guys deal with it? If I didn't care about changing my eating behaviors, I wouldn't devote as much time to this blog to get better. To recover. So give me your ideas please...I want to hear them. Thanks. :)
3 months ago