A food addict's travels on the road to recovery.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Settling In

Hello friends!!

I'm still alive...but just barely, lol. I am indescribably exhausted. Not only from the moving and unpacking and organizing, but I can also tell it's from ALL the bad eating I've done since Friday. It's been bad....really bad....I've focused on nothing but the move....haven't counted a single calorie since Friday....have eaten whatever someone brought me from whatever restaurant. I will pay for that this Friday and do my best to undo it by the following Friday.

Let's back up a bit. Dwayne came over Friday night and we had every single little thing done, ready to move. Got up early Sat morn and called the moving company to see just how late they were going to be. The lady in the ofc said they had a "small" move to do ahead of me and that they should be there in about 4 hours...meaning around 12:30pm. Well.....long story short....they showed up at my apt at 7:30pm Sat night. I think I finally fell in bed around 2am Sunday morning.

Back up around 6:30am Sunday to unpack everything and get organized. Busy all day and all night Sunday. Today I got up early and got out to run some errands and turn the keys and gate cards back into the apt complex. The girl that works in the ofc has been so upset over us leaving. She's worked there for a couple of years now, and we've lived there for 3 1/2 years. She actually had me in tears by the time I left with all the hugging and inviting me back for pool parties anytime. Sweet, sweet girl. I'm going to miss her, too.

Got back home this afternoon and finished organizing stuff. I'm proud to say that every single box is finally unpacked and everything is in it's place. I have a few little items in my closet on the shelves that I need to sort through....like the paper that has all my awesome quotes written on it! lol

My kitchen is finally in order and I cooked dinner tonight for the first time in 4 days. Can't say I wanted to.....simply because every single joint and muscle on my body are aching so bad. I've been averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night since Friday night....I'm just exhausted.

I love the house....we're renting it from my parents. They live right next door (own both houses). They used to live in this one....then moved next door a year ago, decided they like this one better, so they're planning on moving back in next summer after the other house sells. Thinking about going through another move in just one more year makes me want to cry, lol. I'm worn out. I'm very happy with the house and very happy that I managed to get everything unpacked and in it's place in 2 days. I've been working like a maniac.

However, now that it is time to sit down and post about all of it, the guilt is flooding my brain now over all the bad eating...after all, this IS a weight loss blog. Bummer. I suck, lol. I really tried to make myself go to the park today and walk, but my aching joints just wouldn't allow it. At this point, I'm hobbling around the house like an 80 year old woman. My get-up-and-go, got up and went, lol.

It's back to counting calories in the morning and for the next 3 days. I'll do my best to minimize the damage. I think it's safe to assume the 3.4 lb loss I wanted is a joke now, lol. Now it's time to pray I don't have a 3.4 lb. GAIN by Friday morning! I'm not going to freak about this....I'm slowly learning and reminding myself that the picture's bigger than this one week that I was moving. It's about a lifestyle change......this is forever.

Putting my nose to the grindstone when I wake up tomorrow morning...it's back to the egg whites! And to tell you the truth, I can't wait. I've been eating so good and so healthy for 3 months now. After a weekend full of whatever...my body is cussing me like you wouldn't believe. I physically feel like crap. My brain feels like it's in a fog....my stomach is killing me. I didn't realize how much "lighter" I felt on the inside eating so many whole foods and so much less processed and fast foods. Now I realize just how much good I've been doing for myself and I can't wait to get back to it. It feels good to feel good and I miss it.

I hope everyone's weekend was much calmer and more relaxing than mine was. I missed all of you! It's good to be back. I'm fixing to go soak in a nice, hot tub of water and then I'm crashing for the night. I'll do some catching up on blogs tomorrow. Sweet dreams. :)

10 comments:

  1. Its amazing how much different that crap makes you feel, isn't it? I got a harsh reminder of it this weekend myself - yuck.
    Its amazing we didn't feel worse than we did before, but at least we know how to make ourselves feel good now!

    Glad you're back : )

    XO

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  2. I'm so impressed that you have everything unpacked and organized already - you must have worked your tush off...and hopefully that will offset whatever you ate over the weekend. Glad you are getting back with eating right so quickly - you'll feel much better soon!

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  3. Moving is such a drag...can't believe they showed up so late, but what're ya gonna do? You've got such a great outlook on fixing your eating situation - really, it's just right on!

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  4. Sometimes it's easier to just eat whatever someone brings you. Maybe just eating less of it! Anyway, just get back at it and hopefully you'll be seeing good numbers again soon.

    I'm glad you got all moved and organized so quickly.

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  5. Wow, all unpacked in two days! You must be the freaking Energizer bunny! That's impressive. It's good that you're able to see that you feel so much better eating clean, whole foods. Now you can get back on track since all the craziness is over. Glad you like your new place. :)

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  6. Don't beat yourself up over the bad eating choices. So you had a bad weekend. You can see from my blogs that I have MANY bad weekends! Secondly, you have obviously been using your muscles a lot during your move so maybe your weight gain will be minimal...not no gain at all. At least you weren't lying on the couch like I do when I eat bad. And as a side note, movers showing up at 7:30 PM? Um. No. I don't think so.

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  7. Sounds like a mammoth task of moving and unpacking in just 2 days, and you did it. Remarkable. Your attitude sounds great about just getting back on the healthy horse. Isn't it amazing how eating a bunch of crap makes you feel so thick andf foggy and disgusting after you haven't been doing that for awhile? It's a gift, b/c it can help us have a real desire to get back on track.

    I love you saying that the picture is bigger than the one week of moving. So true, and I needed to hear that. Enjoy all the healthy eating coming up, knowing the body is being cleansed of the weekend's craziness.

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  8. What is it about movers in this city?? Unless you schedule the first move of the day, you are waiting 8 hours for them! I learned that the hard way. Glad you are settling in and don't be too hard on yourself. You got a ton of exercise!

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  9. Wow Tammy...
    I've lived in my place for about 4 years and still have boxes not opened. Can you imagine? It'll be like Christmas when I finish renovating and open up those "kitchen" boxes!
    Don't fret about the unplanned eating there wasn't much choice, bar a portable kitchen.
    :)
    Andrea

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  10. It's hard to plan meals when you are in flux like you have been. Don't worry, that won't throw anything off at all!

    Remember that all those boxes were heavy - talk about strength training!

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